You're in my brain.

So I needed to draw you.

 

I know this doesn't look like you.

....

I want to see you again.

Sleep

Something I'm realizing about myself... I hate sleep.
I feel like once I get home from work, eat and clean up after dinner, prep for the next day and are ready to jump into the other projects I want to do... it's bedtime.
Suddenly the frustration of when I was 5 years old and forced to take a nap starts to well up inside of me and I grudgingly get under the covers.
I want a body that doesn't need sleep.

This is an in-progress chalk pastel drawing that I started thinking of my friend, but I think really it's more about me.... Gosh I'm so self-centered. haha.
Her name is Maeda 前田 literally meaning, "before the rice field". From here I plan to draw amorphic dreams rising from the field.
My dreams are right before me. They are intimidating. I feel like my life is too short. I'm tired but I'm driven. I don't want to sleep. That's not where I want to see my dreams. I want to see them before me.

Out of Eden

Just started doodling and this came out. I was thinking of this Bible verse.
14 but each person is tempted when they are dragged away by their own evil desire and enticed. 15 Then, after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, gives birth to death.

Commission complete

So, after maybe a couple of years, I've finally completed a side project that my friend commissioned me to do. As thankful as I am for her, "Anytime is fine" outlook on the project, it definitely wasn't a practice in meeting deadlines.
But now, it is finished and I'm going to start working towards completing my next project.
Which one that is, depends on the publishing avenue decide to pursue. I'm in the research phase right now. I know if I want to publish here in Japan I've got to enlist some of my native friends' help in my research.
Anyway, I'm determined to get something out there. So, the journey continues now.

Coming along

I hope that distance makes the heart grow fonder...

Here are some things I've been working on outside of finishing a commission.

I'm doing my best to be productive with my time and finish all the projects that I've conceived- keeping a consistent blog being one of them.

Goodbye Takashi

I drew this by request for a friend of mine that's leaving our church. It came out surprisingly well. I did it freehand, without a grid or tracing paper. Gave me a burst of confidence!

I've been doodling with a girl in my after-school classes which has been really fun for me.
I'm still not organized enough to have art time after work though. I guess I have to start commissioning myself if I want to get anything done.

Like Stale Bread in French Onion Soup

I've been tossing around the idea for a large scale chalk drawing in my head over the past week as well as really trying to figure out how I need to balance my life. As per usual, once I start to get accustomed to the way things are, big change happens. I'll be changing work places (campus not job) as well as moving to a new apartment soon. I'm not dreading either, but I  know it'll wrench my mind away from art as I'll be spending energy re-adjusting.

So as of now I will keep my projects in the front of my mind, and work towards getting ahead in my planning so that when these big changes happen, I won't be derailed. 

I've been going to the museum over the past couple of weeks as well as watching anime with my room mate. When I see art I feel inspiration well up inside of me, and it really puts me in the mood to work. So, I know what to do if I feel blocked.