Today was really emotionally taxing for me. My one and only goal today was to finish the penciling for my last poster.With the whole family out and the house to myself you'd think that I'd be super productive. But I felt stir crazy. It's been like this all week and today was escalated.
I suppose it's pre-Japan home sickness, as I'm preparing for a trip out there in July.
So, between little spurts of drawing, I doted on my dog, visited my sister, mussed with facebook and went to a baby shower. Despite it all, I really felt kind of lonely all day. My time with people was like quarters spiraling down into the little black hole where you can't get them back and aren't satisfied with the investment. Just like that, the day dragged on and on; I wondered, is this what it's going to be like in Japan? Will I always be alone, scrounging around for someone to talk to or spend a fragment of time with? Or, on the flip side, will I just make myself so busy that I don't have time to think about people? Could I maintain that kind of lifestyle? No way... and wow did I get depressed.
Then this song plays. It says..
It's just what I needed.
Thank you God.
Ah Girl, you are loved by many people and we are all going to miss you while you're in Japan. But if you'd like I could introduce you to my son, lol. Big Hugs and be safe ;)
ReplyDeleteThank you! I'll really miss everyone too. I vaguely remember meeting your son at one point but I may be wrong. What was his name?
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