Like Stale Bread in French Onion Soup

I've been tossing around the idea for a large scale chalk drawing in my head over the past week as well as really trying to figure out how I need to balance my life. As per usual, once I start to get accustomed to the way things are, big change happens. I'll be changing work places (campus not job) as well as moving to a new apartment soon. I'm not dreading either, but I  know it'll wrench my mind away from art as I'll be spending energy re-adjusting.

So as of now I will keep my projects in the front of my mind, and work towards getting ahead in my planning so that when these big changes happen, I won't be derailed. 

I've been going to the museum over the past couple of weeks as well as watching anime with my room mate. When I see art I feel inspiration well up inside of me, and it really puts me in the mood to work. So, I know what to do if I feel blocked. 

3 Months Later

I'm alive!!
I've been developing the culinary artist inside of me, so I haven't starved to death.
Not going to lie, the main reason I haven't worked on my art is because I've been enjoying myself too much. I've made good friends, and have been learning to live a comfortable life.
But comfort never accomplished anything! And now I'm really motivated to get working on my art again.
So, let me get you caught up with my life.
     I've gotten comfortable teaching the kids, and I think I've got a handle on lesson planning. It doesn't take me 5 hours to come up with one day's schedule anymore. This has freed up a lot of time for me.... a lot of time that I've spent talking to my friends and playing. But that's not a bad thing. I don't want to regret being here, and being a sad lonely mess will lead to just that. I've just got to really start organizing my time better to include studio time.
      I've been involved with a lot of Church events and been spending a lot of time with my Church family... mostly my friend Eri, who is like the friend that I've always wanted. She feeds my needy nature, haha. I say, You wanna do fireworks? She says, Yes! Do you wanna come eat hamburgurs? She says, Yes! Do you wanna go to Karaoke? She says, Yes! Do you wanna watch a movie? She says, Yes! Do you wanna work out? She says, Yes! Hence my full schedule.
     I've also been learning Taiko drums! Which is much much harder than I though it would be. And I hate practicing..... I learned this from Taiko and the events at church. I really hate practicing. I've noticed that I will cook, clean, exercise and study before I will practice. This wouldn't be a problem if I was naturally talented, but, sadly, I'm not. I've dropped off the praise team at church and if the taiko performance this spring doesn't go well, or if it sucks up too much of my time, then I will drop it as well.
One stressful day, after work and taiko and everything I was exhausted. It had snowed, and by the time I got back, there was still a nice untouched layer outside my apartment. It was calling me. I had to build a snowman! Once I started, there was no stopping. I made these and I loved every second!

I've re-learned something about myself that I forgot.... I love to create! I can take raw materials, nothing, and create something from my minds eye. That, my friends, is incredible and I love it. So, I'll cut away the excess if need be. I don't need to be on a stage, even if I enjoy it or if they say I have talent. This is my gift. I can create. I am an ARTIST!

And so, I have FINALLY made a complete work that I can show you all.

It started when I was showing Eri and Minori my pastels and how I use them. I started drawing Sailor Moon, at Eri's request, just playing around. I intended on finishing it, but messed up and almost gave up, but then I said, NO WAY! I started this and I'm going to finish!
So, I finally did.
Here's the first one, based of an internet picture.

And, here's the re-draw, my own composition.

Now... the new problem...

I don't have a good way to store or photograph any new work....

I'll keep you updated on that. 

Happy new year. I resolve to continue the process that I started at CNM. Learning to speak through my art. This is my God given talent, and I won't let it die.

Another boring blog.

I'm getting used to a new work schedule and starting a new unit for the school, so I haven't had the time, motivation or news to blog about.... I'm so sorry.
Since my injury it's been hard to sit on the floor for a long time so... whatever art I tackle next is going to happen in short bursts. I do want to make sure I get on the ball again, though.
I need to block some time for another brain storming session.
It really seems like if I don't set aside a block of time for stuff, it'll never happen.
Again, my apologies for another boring blog. I'll be looking forward to having something new to post for you.
Signing off.

Shrieking Nature

As beautiful as this place was, the pictures do not convey the sense of horror when you're actually there. There were huge spiders with long spiny legs, and all kinds of other shrieking insects, mosquitoes and a over all foreboding feeling in this jungle I went into. The men who fought in the jungles here during WWII must've been scared out of their minds. I don't think there are any big man eating animals in the jungles here, but can you imagine if you were fighting people in that kind of environment? Terrifying.

Smile!

So, yesterday I went to Karaoke and I saw one of the guys who was on the administrative staff for the JLPT! He was a very unpleasant person and his face looked like it was stuck in a frown. Literally, even when he was smiling it looked unhappy. So, when I saw him at a recreational establishment... sure enough, it was stuck like that. Today I saw guy on the street with the same sort of unhappy expression... and the sad thing is, he didn't look terribly unhappy. His face just looked kinda stuck like that.
So, be careful people! Make an effort to smile.

Writer's block? NOOOOOO!!!

So, after not working on my comics in over 3 yearsm when I finally sit down to get back to work I realized that I don't like what I had in the first place. So, I begin to re-work and I can't think of anything. I think that I have to get back into the habit of thinking about it during any and l of my zone out moments... cycling, riding the train, cleaning, etc. Also, I have to consider the changes I want to make from the original direction too the direction I'm going as a different person. I hope that makes sense. I've got a headache and am not even looking at the screen much.  I guess what I'm trying to say, is that I've changed as a person, and so I think the story needs to reflect that. I think it's just a matter of sitting behind a sketch pad and talking to myself for a few hours/days. Hopefully I'll have a good report next week as well as some finished art to show.

Neat freak!

So, not much to blog about today, since I pretty much spent the whole weekend shopping and cleaning. Now that I'm living on my own I'm finding out that I'm really a neat freak and I didn't know it. I notice all the little spots where hair and dust build up, the gunk on kitchen surfaces, etc. etc. So this weekend I was a little scrubbing bubble, spamming my friend the whole time about how much hair can build up in a drain. I started working on a pencil drawing to show the people at church what my drawings are like. It was lucky because I met a girl who also went to college for art! So I got to show it to her! I'll post the finished product next week.